I've been having a hard time. A scary double kick-ass hard time (just to get technical).
And strangely (can you say Life Lessons ), all my normal comfort spots (in numerous areas of my life) have disappeared. The usual shoulders, the oft-proffered hand, the blog where I find encouragement and inspiration, the physical resting place - nada, kaput, unavailable, gone - phffft!
Oh! Let's not forget the ants! All of a sudden we've got ants (never before - in 30+ years here) - what the what?
There goes another comfort spot. I can forget my woes for a few minutes if I'm indulging in goodies - but not while I'm doing parry-riposte maneuvers with ants. Yuck!
When I sat reflecting on all this, a mind-picture of a ship in the middle of a very stormy sea appeared (yes, it is weird how my brain throws out visuals).
The ship-in-the-stormy-sea visual brought to mind some of the scarier ocean crossings of my youth. My family often boated over to Bimini (the island Papa Hemingway loved) - and for whatever reason, we very often went when seas were wild crazy. I remember a few times when the waves were higher than the boat was long. Scary!
You couldn't see the shore - couldn't gauge the length of time it would take to get to land. Fears crept in (galloped in, actually): would the wild ride ever end? Would we ever get to shore? Was this IT (the end)? Scary!
In my current adrift-in-wild-seas state I tossed a question out, a plea for help from my inner spirit - and Spirit: how-where-what do I do now? Ok, maybe it was more like HOW-WHERE-WHAT-DO-I-DO-NOW? (loud & whiney).
And I wrote the answer down:
Sit with love, BE the love,
not DO, just sit with it.
You are enough and not too much.
You are loved.
You are love.
You can sit anywhere - open your heart and feel,
see - with nature - through music, laughter,
touch, the senses
you can feel the abundance - the beauty - that is maybe just a hint
of the breath of the Beloved...
not even a measurable piece of the wholeness and yet - wow!
The beauty in nature, music, laughter - it's a LOT!
Nothing new -- this is Be Here Now stuff. But sometimes I need specifics, some practical, directive help with how to Be Here Now. The answer I got gave me this. This worked (while I did it! Don't want to give the idea that this was a one-time-and-you're-done thing).
And I offer it to you, in case you're boat is facing wild crazy scary waves right now, too - in case you need a practical reminder (maybe another tool for the self-care toolbox?) of one of the ways to Be Here Now.